Third Trimester Thoughts...

So, it's a slow day at work (not really, I just don't want to work), and I got to thinking about the randomness that are my thoughts. They range throughout the day and it's kind of funny what I sit and ponder....here are some examples:

1. There is a human being inside of me
2. There is a human being inside of me that is moving...that's pretty cool
3. There is a human being inside of me that is moving and that did not feel so good
4. I have to pee
5. There is a human being inside of me that has a hand or foot stuck in my rib
6. Yeah!!! Baby furniture
7. Poor Heisman...he has no idea what's coming
8. I wonder if they have any fruit that's not 2 weeks old down in the cafeteria
9. I have to pee...again
10. I need to wash all his clothes
11. I am so excited for him to come!
12. Am I ever going to have a flat stomach/see my feet again
13. I bet they'll feel sorry for me and let me cut to the front of the line
14. That's a cute belt....I miss wearing belts
15. I need to pee...AGAIN!!!!
16. I am a huge fat slob!....I'm wearing tent dresses from now on =)
17. I'm a good look'n pregnant woman!
18. I'm hungry again
19. I wonder what Eric's doing
20. Hmm...there's a person in there...a person that has to come out!!!!

So I don't know if you call that crazy, neurotic, or just pregnant (which they probably all mean the same thing). And keep in mind when you see me...you don't know which of these thoughts is going through my head so BEWARE! ha ha.
As I have said...I have been so fortunate this entire pregnancy...so many of my friends have been so sick or on bed rest, etc. pretty much their entire pregnancy so I really am not complaining, but this is all starting to catch up to me now. I am so exhausted....and yes, I do realize I'm going to be getting less sleep once he comes....I am truly looking forward to the day that I can sleep on my stomach again and that I don't have to wake Eric up to hoist me out of bed...that one is actually pretty funny to see.
Last time we went to the Dr., Eric commented that he didn't understand why I kept saying I would LOVE to have him at 37 or 38 weeks if he decided to join us a little early...this is why I love my OB...he told him not only are the last 3 weeks (37-40) absolutely miserable, but that I would probably hate everything that came out of his mouth until that kid popped out (and probably for a while after..ha ha). He said, just remember...as far as she's concerned...this is your fault!!! Poor Eric. I don't think I've been too crazy or emotional, but I'm sure he'd have a different opinion. He has bought me flowers, rubbed my back...pretty much done anything that I asked. Now just because he did it doesn't mean I didn't change my mind and want it the complete opposite way, but he still did it =).
Okay, I have to do some work, but I hope that everyone has a Happy New Year! I'll be at the greatest restaurant in the world tonight...Capital Grille! Be safe!

It's Here, It's Here!

The rest of the furniture came in last night!!!! Pictures to come!

On It's Way!

BB's room is slowly but surely being completed....the crib is put together with all the bedding and we will be getting the rest of the furniture this week! We also got the stroller/carseat too! The one we registered for ended up looking purple instead of blue (a little too feminine for BB) so we ended up taking it back and getting another one that I actually like much more. I told Eric that I at least feel better that we can now give him a place to sleep and something to ride home in! Here are a few pictures of the room/crib and of course one of the proud pappa who put the crib together =):

We are also getting drapes fr BB's room and when we went to PB Kids the other night they had curtain rods with footballs on the ends...so guess what we have for a curtain rod =). It's actually really cute and goes will with the rest of the room. I can't wait to get everything up!

Eric is downstairs right now working on getting the stroller put together so I'm staying out of the way...I'm not very mechanically inclined so it's probably best...hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas!.....

Christmas Break is Coming!!!!!

Can I tell you how nice it is to know that I get off work at 12pm tomorrow...yet somehow stressful at the same time?!?!? I am so tired and so excited to have 3 1/2 full days off from work, but I'm so busy (yet I'm writing on my blog at work...hmmm)! With everyday that passes, it's one less before BB gets here, i.e. one less day I have to get everything transitioned to co-workers/boss before I am out for 12 weeks! I just don't want to be one of those people (and we've had them) who go out on leave and then everyone complains because they didn't get everything taken care of....oh well, all I know is that it's almost time relax. And no, I still haven't finished Christmas shopping!!!! I only have 2 people left, but I'm stumped. One is my best friend and I always put so much thought into her gift that it ends up stressing me out. I don't know why it's like that with her...the other one shouldn't be this difficult, but I just hate giving the same old generic Christmas gifts each year. I guess I will finish up tomorrow.
I am going fabric shopping tonight with my friend Shauna. We are going to figure out what type of drapes I want for BB's room. My friend Beth's grandmother offered to sew them so I can't pass on that!
A bit of sad news....my grandmother's best friend (of over 50 years) has recently been diagnosed with cancer (unknown primary from what she has said) and it has spread over her entire body. She has severe radiation burns on parts of her body and it in a tremendous amount of pain. They have actually decided to radiate her brain now. Just pray that the treatments go well with minimal side effects. She is actually a close family friend and it broke my heart to talk to my grandmother the other day. I think sometimes we forget what a blessing it is to have a grandmother (89) and a grandfather (92) who still live independently with virtually no medical problems (except for the typical old age stuff). Okay, I'm going to make a Grey's Anatomy reference here...Patsy is my grandmother's "person." They have given her 3-6 mo. Working where I do I think I have become very callous to the whole process of death/dying when someone is in pain. I just feel that it is so much better for them to go peacefully with quality of life than to live a few extra months in pain. Wow...this post has just taken on a completely unintended dark side. Basically, just pray for peace and reassurance for the family/friends and for her quality of life...
Okay, lets talk about something a little more upbeat...Eric's family is coming into town on the 26th-27th. For those of them that read this blog...you can't look in BB's closet! There are way too many things with his name on it...sorry =(. I'll let you peek in if you just want see what it looks like, but no name hints!
I know...we're evil, but only a few more weeks =)

I Never Thought It Would Happen To Me

Have you ever watched a TV show where the woman is big and pregnant, can't see her feet, and wore 2 different shoes....I WORE 2 DIFFERENT SHOES TO WORK!!! And they aren't even almost close! One is red, one is brown, and I have on black pants!!!!!!! I personally find it hilarious (along with everyone in my office) but I cannot believe that I did that! It really is not an issue of being big and not being able to see my feet...I just think it's baby brain. I was sitting at my desk, looked down, at my cute red shoe and then noticed the other one didn't quite work with my whole ensemble..
FYI...I plan to sit with my feet under my desk for the rest of the day!

3 Things That Made Me Happy Today....

First and foremost (and this probably should be the last one on the list) I got my hair color back to a more manageable color today...it feels so much better. I am the first to admit I'm a tad on the picky side when it comes to my hair, but I just couldn't stand the way it came out the last time. I love my hairstylist though....If you are in Houston and need a GREAT place to go, I love Blue Mambo (http://www.bluemambostudio.com/). Julie C. is the best. And what's crazy is that I was paying more going to Visible Changes where they almost always messed up my hair!

Second, I found out that we are getting BB's crib for Christmas!!! Yeah! I cannot wait to put it together. Well, actually to stand there and watch Eric put it together, but either way....I am so excited to start putting everything in his room!

Third, and probably the most important, I got some new information about my job. A little while ago I posted about my conflict of going back to work vs. staying at home. Well, my job has said that they are going to let me come back part time...and I can work 2 or 3 days a week! The major benefit of this is obviously that I get to stay home with my little man, but still get out of the house a few days a week. Plus I will get to keep insurance benefits. This was actually a HUGE deal because since Eric works at a start up company the insurance is not only sub par, but it is ridiculously expensive. I really feel like everything has fallen into place and this is what I am supposed to do. I really feel at peace with this...yeah!!!! I still have to figure out what I am going to do about childcare when I am at work, but I am positive that things will work out....

Anyway, I REALLY need to get motivated and finish Christmas shopping!!!! I am almost done, but it's those last few items that are really slowing me down. I'm just not sure what to get these people! Oh well, I'm sure I'll figure something out. I just don't want to be searching on Christmas Eve!

Pregnancy Hair.....

I went to get my hair done today....and it is too dark....AGAIN! I am so frustrated with my hair right now. I had been warned that during pregnancy your hair can do weird things...including the color....My hairdresser said she didn't intend for it to come out as dark as it did and that it will fade a little, but I don't like it....I like my hair so much lighter =(...sigh....I just want to have my hair done and it come out the way I want! I'm sure I'll get it "fixed" and end up with purple hair or something in a few weeks!

Going Strong....

I had my Dr. appt. today and everything went well. Eric is sad because he doesn't get another "picture" (ultrasound) of the baby, so now he wants to go to one of those places where you pay to do it. I'm fine with it if he wants to...I just really don't like the 3 and 4D images. I think they're creepy. They look like rock formations or little old men or something (I know...rock formation vs. little old man is really not a good comparison.)
I asked him how they can tell what position the baby is in without an US and he said the he can already see that he's head down. So that big bump on the lower right hand side of my stomach that I've been poking....um, yeah...that's his head...oops =). I thought it was a butt! It's so odd when I lay down because I'm completely lopsided....there's just this big bump on the right hand side....And back to a previous post...the belly button is getting a little too close for comfort. I have a ways to go, but I'm getting scared! =)
I have to start going every 2 weeks now to the Dr. Our next visit is on Christmas Eve. I was shocked they would be open, but it's easier for both of us to go that day. I have to go this Monday as well to do my Glucose test. I have to drink "Glucola"...sounds yummy right? But I do hear that it comes in a variety of flavors! You have to drink within 5 minutes and then exactly one hour later they do a blood draw to check your sugar levels...I pray that I do not have gestational diabetes because I do not know what i would do without my fruit and ice cream! I need them!!!
I really do like going to the Dr. because I get to hear his heartbeat (although he doesn't ever let me forget he's in there with all the kicking and poking), but it always seems that an 11am visit turns into a 12pm visit which doesn't end until 1pm...I work at a outpatient clinic in a hospital...I should know how appointments run.
I do love my Dr. though. He's VERY laid back about everything. He's one of those guys who will tell you that people have been having babies for centuries...way before USs and Glucose screenings....and they were fine! I was so upset when I had to switch OBs (my original one is retiring from OB in January), but Dr. Irwin is wonderful. I don't know you could stick with an OB you didn't like. Its a somewhat "personal" thing and I think it's so important to have a good pregnancy, labor/birth experience...I have had friends who hated their OB from the start and stayed with them...I just couldn't do that. He gets the Bethea stamp of approval =)
Hope everyone has finished their shopping...because I haven't...I kind of need to get on the ball...

The Lone Ranger....

So there were 3 pregnant people at my office...now it's just me =(. One of the girls just kind of quit showing up for work so she got fired (very odd) and then the other girl is actually due Jan 2, but she started having contractions so now she's out...I'm lonely =(.
Oh well...I've started having Braxton Hicks contractions and I can't say that I'm too fond of them. It's exactly like they describe them...not painful, but "uncomfortable." It's not bad if I'm at home because I can just lay down and they go away, but at work I'm pretty much stuck. There is a huge difference between him moving and the contraction. I still love to feel him move though! He's been pretty active since about week 20 on, but now it's crazy! He moves ALL the time! What's funny is that I don't think he likes people "touching him." I can touch my stomach and he'll keep on kicking, but if anyone else does he usually stops (including Eric). Eric has definitely felt him kick, but he usually slows way down when he touches me.
I can't believe it is almost Christmas...I still have a lot to do. Eric's family was easy this year because we decided to draw names...only one present to buy (well, actually 2, but I told Eric he is responsible for his person). My family...not so much....I can usually figure out something to buy for the women, but guys are a different story. I hate always buying a sweater or a shirt, but I never know what to get. Lots of gift cards probably (which is probably worse than a shirt, but at least people can get what they want).
I go back to the Dr. on Friday so hopefully everything will continue to go as planned. I have really enjoyed being pregnant so far, but I can tell it's going to get old pretty soon. The back aches, leg cramps, etc. are starting to catch up with me I think. It's not so much "painful" as it is uncomfortable (well, the leg cramps are PAINFUL) . I would love to just take some NyQuil and sleep, but of course I can't do that...I"m sure I'll just rest after he gets here..HA HA HA!
I also have a new craving...watermelon and pineapple! I actually don't think I've eaten my usual 10 lbs of strawberries this week =). I hope that those fruits stay in season through the winter because Eric my have to do some driving otherwise!

What To Do, What To Do???

So I have always said that I have no desire to stay at home after I have kids. That I would just go back to work after my maternity leave...well, now I'm singing a different tune. I just don't know. I really want to stay home and be a Mom. I want to raise my kids. I don't want to have a baby sitter call me to say that he took his first steps today, or he said his first words. I want to be there for that! (Let me add that I do not think that there is ANYTHING wrong with being a working Mom...I just don't know if that's what I want to do). Eric is totally supportive, but I just don't know what to do. If I do stay home I will go back to work once the kid(s) are in school...but that's the problem. How hard is it to get a job after you've taken 5-9 years off??? I don't ever want to look back and say, "I wish I would have just stayed home," but I also don't want to have to say, well, we can't pay for your college because I chose to stay at home....see where I'm coming from? Did anyone else struggle with this decision or was it just an easy choice?
My second issue rattling around in my brain is "Will I be a good Mom?" It's funny because I am 150% confident that Eric is going to be such a good Dad/provider for our family; me on the other hand...not so sure. I don't know if this is a common worry or just me or what!
So basically these two things combined seem to be the never ending cycle of "Am I doing what's best for my child" and "Will I regret the decisions I have made." I seriously doubt there are many women out there they say, "If I had of just spent those extra hours at work my family would have been better."...I know it's the other way around, but it still troubles me.
I asked Eric if he is nervous or worried about the little guy joining us and he said no...he seems calm, cool, and collected about this whole thing....what's wrong with him? I mean I am stressed out because his room isn't completely finished! To be a man =)....I just feel as though I have this huge amount of pressure on my shoulders. If something goes wrong with my family it is because of a decision I will make....I want to be the best Mom/wife that I can be, but I feel like I am entering uncharted waters right now. Thoughts????